Today was the end of S.E.D (Spiritual Emphasis Days). To those who don't know what this is, it is a spiritual retreat that my school takes at the beginning of the year. This is to strengthen our existing walks with the Lord so that it's strong, and hopefully stays that way throughout the year. We had an amazing speaker, who really made us think about ourselves and how we could use the main verse in our lives. The main verse was 1 Kings 18:21 "Elijah went before the people and said, 'How long will you waiver between to opinions? If the Lord is God then follow Him, but if Baal is god follow him.' But the people said nothing." The reason our faculty chose this verse was to challenge us to really reflect on our past decisions with questions such as: 'Do the little choices affect you more in the end, then the bigger ones?' or 'What past decisions did you make and what was the consequence to that action?' These questions really made me look back at past decisions I've produced through the years and I realized one thing. Nearly half of those decisions I regret even until today. I look at myself and the only thing i can think is I'm the biggest idiot in the world. But the thing was during our bonfire last night my Bible teacher stood up and started to tell all of us that no matter what you've done in your life nothing is to big for God. Even if you think you're useless God still loves us. No matter how big the wrong may seem too you. Nothing is to big for God to handle I mean he created the world. He just thought it and there it was, just a snap of his fingers. Also someone else said that God is the essence of perfection He can't even be in the same room with sin yet He manages to forgive us. If someone as perfect as Him can forgive us and we keep thinking that that we're still not good enough is basically spitting the forgiveness we've just been given right into his face. Essentially telling Him we don't need Him. I don't think that any Christian could do that to Him, the giver of life, the alpha and omega, beginning and the end. Like I said before nothing is to big or to much to handle for God. I guess what I'm trying to say from all of this is that we need God every single person, big or small, needs God. The feeling you feel when you want to be satisfied and nothing seems to cut it. That is God beckoning to you to come home. If you feel that don't shrink away from it embrace it and let God become number 1 in your life because without Him you will always feel empty.
